At times, memories of Miles come back to me so powerfully. I hear his voice so clearly or I feel his presence. It is bittersweet. The memories are a refreshing reminder of him and his spirit. I am reminded of his kindness and warmth and humor. I hope such experiences occur for the rest of my life.
These memories also remind me that Miles is frozen in a place and time. On one occasion when his presence came to my mind, it occurred to me that I could never measure how tall he is against me, back to back. It also occurred to me that I could not compare his height to his brother. Owen has grown a lot in the past and I wanted to see how he compared to his brother. I do not know how tall he is compared to Miles. The thought made me very sad.